Chapter 1 | Part 3

The chamber doors groaned open. Drusniel’s eyes had been tracing the veins in the antechamber wall—one long, one fractured, one thin—and now the pattern was gone.

Tracing the walls. Annariel’s mouth had curved, moments before. You always do that when you’re nervous.

The trial chamber sprawled before them, vast and dim. Obsidian columns rose toward a ceiling lost in darkness, their surfaces carved with prayers so old the language had died with its speakers. Bioluminescent fungi clung to the walls in pale clusters, casting the space in bruised purple light. At the chamber’s heart, a circular platform of black stone waited beneath an altar shaped like folded wings.

Venemora’s altar. Where the goddess would either claim them or turn away.

Drusniel found a new pattern—the cracks in the nearest column. One branching. Two parallel. Focus on that.

Three mages stood near the altar in robes the color of dried blood. Their faces held the particular boredom of officials who had watched this ritual a thousand times. The lead mage—an ancient drow with white hair cropped close to her skull—consulted a list etched on slate.

“Annariel,” she called, not bothering with his house name. “Step forward.”

Annariel squeezed Drusniel’s arm once, quick and hard. Then he walked toward the platform with his shoulders back and his chin raised. Playing confident. Drusniel knew better. He’d seen Annariel’s hands shaking in the antechamber.

But their practice had worked. It had. All those nights in the grove, reaching for something they weren’t supposed to touch—Annariel had grown stronger. His sparks had become flames. His reaching had found purchase.

Annariel knelt on the platform. Closed his eyes.

The mages watched with the enthusiasm of people observing paint dry.

Drusniel held his breath. Traced the altar’s carved edges with his eyes. One wing. Two. The fold where they met—

A shimmer passed through the air above the altar. Faint, like heat rising from summer stone. Annariel’s hands unclenched. His breathing steadied.

“Adequate connection,” one of the mages murmured to another. “He’ll do.”

That was it. No fanfare. No blessing descending in light. Just adequate and he’ll do, and Annariel opened his eyes with tears streaming down his face because he understood what Drusniel understood: they had done the impossible. Their forbidden practice, their secret grove, their years of reaching without permission—it had worked.

Annariel rose on unsteady legs. His eyes found Drusniel’s across the chamber. A brief nod. Your turn.

“Drusniel of House Thel’varin,” the lead mage called. Her tone suggested she was already thinking about her midday meal. “Step forward.”

His legs moved. The obsidian floor felt too smooth beneath his feet, too cold. He fixed his eyes on the platform’s edge—the line where black stone met black stone—and let it pull him forward.

The stone was warm where Annariel had knelt. Drusniel settled into that borrowed warmth and closed his eyes.

Reach, he told himself. Just like we practiced. Feel for her blessing.

He had never felt chosen. Not in all the years of secret practice, not in all the nights reaching toward something that never reached back. But he had learned to reach anyway. That had to count for something.

He reached.

And there it was. The presence they had trained so long to sense—distant but real, like a voice calling through fog. Venemora’s blessing, the thread of divine power that would make him a mage. He had spent years learning to feel for it in secret, and now here it was, closer than ever before.

Drusniel stretched toward it.

The blessing moved closer. Closer. He could almost—

Nothing.

He grabbed and found empty air. The blessing had been there, a heartbeat away, and now the space where it waited was simply… gone. Not withdrawn. Not hidden. Gone, like a door that had never existed. He reached for the place it had been and touched smooth absence, a hole in the shape of everything he’d worked for.

Drusniel reached again, harder this time. There had to be something. He had felt it—

The void was larger now.

His counting stuttered. Lost the numbers. He grasped blindly in his own mind, searching for the familiar presence of potential, and found only smooth walls. Like scar tissue over an amputation. Like the memory of a limb that had been there moments ago.

Third attempt. Desperate. Clawing.

Nothing at all. Not even the void, now. Just the ordinary emptiness of a mind that had never touched magic.

He opened his eyes.

The mages weren’t looking at him with shock. They weren’t exchanging meaningful glances. The ancient one had already checked something off her slate and was scanning for the next name on her list.

“No connection,” one of the other mages noted. He might have been commenting on the weather. “Mark it. Another from the martial houses.”

“Consistent with the averages,” the third mage said, already looking past Drusniel to the next candidate.

Drusniel’s ears rang. His hands had gone numb against the warm stone.

“Failed.” The lead mage didn’t even look up from her slate. “Next candidate.”

Failed.

The word didn’t make sense. Their practice had worked—he’d just watched it work for Annariel. He’d felt Venemora’s blessing approaching. It had been right there.

He stood. His legs felt borrowed, operating on someone else’s commands. He looked toward Annariel, who stood with the other successful candidates near the chamber’s far wall.

Annariel’s face had gone the color of old ash. His mouth hung slightly open. His eyes were fixed on Drusniel with an expression Drusniel had never seen before: pure, undiluted horror.

Because Annariel knew. They had practiced together. They had reached together. They had both touched that presence in the dark.

This shouldn’t have happened.

Drusniel made himself walk toward the exit. The other candidates—the failed ones, the line he now belonged to—shuffled ahead of him in silence. Their faces held defeat, resignation, the ordinary grief of people who had tried and come up short.

That wasn’t what this was. Drusniel hadn’t come up short. He had reached and something had taken.

He looked back once. Annariel was still staring at him. Mouthing something that might have been I’m sorry or might have been what happened or might have been nothing at all, just the shape of confusion on a friend’s lips.

A mage took Annariel’s arm and steered him toward a different door—toward the training halls, toward the future they had planned to share.

The lead mage’s voice echoed through the chamber. “Merinaal of House—”

Drusniel didn’t hear the rest. His eyes found the shame hall’s carved names, tracing the letters without reading them. One line to the next. Worn grooves and fresh cuts. Imperfections in the stone.

The patterns meant nothing. They changed nothing. But they gave his mind something to hold besides the shape of that absence.

He had reached for it. It had been there.

Then it hadn’t.

Unless he’d imagined it. Unless desperation had conjured the sensation of Venemora’s approach—a phantom blessing for a boy who wanted it too badly. Maybe the void had always been there, and he’d only felt what he needed to feel.

But Annariel’s face stayed with him. That horror. That recognition.

Annariel had watched him practice. Annariel knew.

Something had been taken.

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